Thursday, August 28, 2008

Not Knowing

Today I reflected on the passage about being ready because you do not know the hour when the master will return. It seems threatening at first. But then, if the one who returns is Christ, then it is a time to await with joy. I tried to do that today.

Sometimes I look at all my failures and all the things I find difficult or at disappointments and interpret them as ways in which I am not good in God's sight. Or I think that they mean I am not as loved by God as I desire to be. It was so clear this morning that all these things are not measures of my love for God or God's love for me. Human success in work and relationships, while an important part of life, is not what life is about ultimately. Giving self to God and not placing the other things above that love is what life is for. I tried to rest for just a few minutes in the sense that God loves me even when I am experiencing disppointment or what seems to me to be failure. For a moment I was at peace with that.

I want to wait today for whatever way God desires to come into my life.

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